Friends

I don't know why but today I started thinking about friends, real friends, true friends, forever friends. Do they even exist? I have had many friends over my 50 plus years. Alot have come and gone. Recently I have lost a friend and I don't understand why. She was there one day and gone forever. We didn't fight, we didn't decide to go seperate ways, we just stopped. I thought we were good friends, special friends. The kind of friends that enjoyed each other's company, but I guess not. We would share birthdays have lunch, so I sent her a card one year, a very funny one at that. No response, no card on my day, nothing. It hurt for a long time, ALOT. Now I just wonder why? There are friends who were there for a period and then decided to leave with no explanation, why? There are friends who call every now and then and want to get together but it's hard when you don't see each other enough. I have even had friends who drain me. We get together and it's all about them, their marriage, their kids, their lives. They suck the energy right out of me. I think I am a good friend. I am loyal, I love and care alot, I'm very genrous, and hope I'm there whenever needed. I have no problem admitting the reason for lost friendships is me, but let me know. Don't just leave, OK? If there is anyone who needs a friend. A real honest, share good and bad, laugh and cry kind of friend let me know. Maybe we can start a lasting friendship, if they really exist.