Good-bye K.C.

Today was a sad day for the Hartzell family. K.C our kitty cat of 16 plus years is gone. We were all here Russ, Matt, Ash, and I. Russ purchased K.C. for Ashley for her 6th birthday. He was so scared that first day. It took awhile but soon he was a part of the family. He lived in the country with us in Washington and was always bringing schrews, snakes and birds to the garage door. He could really be fisty when he wanted, and he wanted alot!!! He made it through the moves, the coyotes, the streets and traffic and everything else that could have taken him. Recently we had noticed him losing weight very rapidly and Ash knew there wasn't much time. She let us all know through e-mail that she would decide when and she would do it here at the house. Ash is a veterinary technician and has taken down many animals but never one she loved so much. Our brave, courageous daughter gave her kitty a sedative to start after holding him for an hour or so. I could see her hesitation, trying to do what was necessary. And then through her tears my precious child pumped her kitty full of the pink liquid that works so well. It didn't take long and our K.C. was gone. I've never seen so much courage as I saw tonight. My baby girl took her kitty in her arms and sobbed, we all did. We took paw prints because she wants to get a tatoo. K.C. was Ashe's first pet, and no matter what she and him had a bond. She loved him deeply and she gave him a precious, precious gift, peace at last. I asked the Lord tonight that if he takes any kittie's to heaven that K.C. will be one of them. We will miss you our big fluffy orange kitty. We loved you so.........

New Laundry room and machines!!!!!!

I have such a great hubby. You may say I'm spoiled but I don't care, your'e all just jealous!!!!!!!!! For Mother's Day he got me a new washer and dryer. Not just any washer and dryer, but the new LG washer and dryer. They are only rated #1! And those of you that know me won't be surprised by this, they are bright red!!! Tim my daughter's boyfriend and his friend Cody painted the laundry room last week-end BRIGHT yellow. I don't get my machines until Saturday but I can't wait to see them in that room. My laundry room is so cute now! Some of you may say, well that's really romantic, but isn't it when they were the only thing I really wanted? And besides on Mother's Day week-end Russ, Sammy, and I went Rv'ing in Ilwaco Washington. Tim and Ash came and spent Friday night with us and we had a great time. They have a precious puppy store there and Russ took me there 4 times so I could get exactly what I wanted. And the whole week-end he wouldn't let me cook or do anything, he waited on me hand and foot, now that's romantic!! So, eat your heart's out ladies. I do have an amazingly blessed life and family. And by the way, belated Mother's Day to you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blah, yuck, blah

Today is not such a good day. I'm just feeling crummy. No energy, no spark, knees KILLING ME, and overall Blah. I have been living and suffering with osteoarthritis in both my knees now for close to 7 years. I probably had it before that but not to the degree it is now. I need knee replacements in both of them. There is no other option for relief. Joints are gone, bone to bone, etc., etc., etc. There is alot more than one problem with this. There are techniques, new techniques, for replacing knees. New strides, new technology, ..... But none of these last more than 10 years. So, after that no walkey anymore. Not an option for me. So, I live in constant sometimes debilitating pain. I am allergic to all the drugs made for knee pain, celebrex, vioxx, bectra, etc. My joints and hands swell up, not fun. My Doctor tells me not to exercise because it will exasberate my symptoms. The one thing I can do is swim, but not really swim, walk up and down in a pool. I tried that once. There were alot of ladies, should I say alot older ladies than myself who were there. I guess when you get to be alot oler you lose your vanity. They all walked around the dressing room naked. They were very nice and would even talk to me, but that was difficult when all that was going through my head was.,"DO your Boobs hang low, do they wobble to and fro, ...!' So I keep on keeping on but it's not fun. It is work, hard work and some days to hard. I'm sure alot of you that know me are thinking, lose weight. Face it people I know, I am fat. I am also post menopausal. That means my body has changed dramatically from 5 years ago. Then I could lose weight from watching my diet, or as that evil word goes "Dieting". Not any more. Now it has to do with EXERCISE. Remember what I said a few sentences back, I can't do that. I'm not even supposed to go upstairs which is a little difficult since my bedroom is up there! I don't feel like I am a vain person. I try to look nice, keep my hair and nails up, dress appropiately, but I'm unacceptable in the main stream because of my weight. People probably perceive me as lazy maybe even stupid. I don't feel I am either of those things, I just hurt, ALOT. I don't usually complain about this but today is a different day. I want those who care to know about me and my life, and those who don't so be it. There are those of you who may think this is a cop-out, or an excuse, but you don't really know me then. I have a good life, a blessed life. A husband of 27 years and counting. You may ask, how did we do it? Commitment and GOD, mostly God. There have been to many ups and downs to even remember but that strength from our Father has kept us together. And our beautiful children. I know all parents are proud of their kids but I have to admit, I have GREAT kids. They are smart, funny, loving, compassionate, realistic and down to earth. They both love the Lord and are commited to Him. They have both gone through school, graduated at the top of their classes, and are now pursuing careers because of their achievements. I Love them both so much and I am so, so proud. And I have a beautiful home, financial security, and a hope of eternity with my Saviour. So, why do I feel crappy today. Oh yea, it's that human thing I just can't get away from it. Is anyone else feeling really HUMAN today, let me know? We can talk about you instead of me and learn more about each other. Till Then..................

Friends

I don't know why but today I started thinking about friends, real friends, true friends, forever friends. Do they even exist? I have had many friends over my 50 plus years. Alot have come and gone. Recently I have lost a friend and I don't understand why. She was there one day and gone forever. We didn't fight, we didn't decide to go seperate ways, we just stopped. I thought we were good friends, special friends. The kind of friends that enjoyed each other's company, but I guess not. We would share birthdays have lunch, so I sent her a card one year, a very funny one at that. No response, no card on my day, nothing. It hurt for a long time, ALOT. Now I just wonder why? There are friends who were there for a period and then decided to leave with no explanation, why? There are friends who call every now and then and want to get together but it's hard when you don't see each other enough. I have even had friends who drain me. We get together and it's all about them, their marriage, their kids, their lives. They suck the energy right out of me. I think I am a good friend. I am loyal, I love and care alot, I'm very genrous, and hope I'm there whenever needed. I have no problem admitting the reason for lost friendships is me, but let me know. Don't just leave, OK? If there is anyone who needs a friend. A real honest, share good and bad, laugh and cry kind of friend let me know. Maybe we can start a lasting friendship, if they really exist.

Skiing the back side

Hi People, I tried to open a neew blog but being the blog geek I am it didn't work. Anywho, lifes definitely had it's ups and downs, I finally lost my mom to Altzheimer's in November. It is so wierd to know that my mamma is in the loving arms of Jesus. It kind of freaks me out ya know. I mean she did it, she went from life to eternal life, amazing. I miss her and always will but I have the promise we will be together again, thank-you Jesus. Our family, especially certain individuals have been through some rough times and personal growth. It's so interesting when you find out that what you thought was true was never true, and who you cared deeply for just used that against you. My family is doing so much better now. I see new love blossoming and new memories will be made. It's RV'ing time again! The hubby turns 51 next week and we, our kids, their significant others, and our puppy will be heading down to the beach to celebrate, good times, yeah!!!!! We through the grace of God, were able to purchase a condo this year as an investment and our daughter is renting it. We couln't have picked a better tenant and it got her out of a tough situation as well. There is nothing better than to be able to help your kids with financial resources, or should I say that God helps them, but knowing we can is priceless. So, on with the year and the new memories. Life's good on the backside!!